Bitter/Sweet

So today is somewhat a sad day for me but at the same time a joyful day. Today is the day my youngest brother Jay is turning 17. :) It's amazing and I thank God for creating such the perfect youngest brother for me.

It's crazy that he's growing so fast. I mean he's almost taller than me.

But even though I'm happy that its my bro's birthday, I'm still upset I can't be there to celebrate it with him. Matter a fact, thinking of it consistently reminds me of my family and how I havent seen them since Christmas. That's a long time for anyone to be away from their family. It's crazy. I mean even though this class is a family of its own ( Kara being the Mom, Hannah that aunt  who is always straight forward with you, kyle biggs that cool brother, melanie that fiesty sister, mike flowers that uncle who always lets you get away with everything, and of course bekah...lol that one person of the family of the opposite sex you look at and think, "Wow..they're cute..wait what?..We're related!? Man I wish we weren't")
But anyway... I really am beginning to miss my family alot. Things aren't the same and it's almost like some of me can't truly come out to others because it's linked to my family.